Hours after my father’s death, I received a phone call from my mother, crying. I had no idea how she found out about his passing as I had zero contact with her for years. I decided then to tell her that I had one parent left and it was time for her to get into treatment and to get clean. I told her of how I needed a mom, how she wasn’t there, and how it was now time to be a mother. One thing lead to another, after telling her right now was not the day to rekindle a relationship.
The phone call ultimately ended with her saying, “when are you going to come around….when I’m dead!?”.
My mother and father’s marriage dissolved in a string of patterns.
First, she gambled away my father’s entire business and our homes.
Second, he found out she was doing meth.
Third, and final straw, was the moment he found out she was cheating on him with another man.
Many people believe that drug addicted family members leave your life as soon as they find their new love of a substance. That cannot be further from the truth, for many.
This message was sent to me hours after watching my father pass away - the author, my mother.
I have only omitted information to protect her private information.
Many people have told me that I should not have read this message. However, I felt it necessary in assessing each moment for the truth that it laid.
My life’s goal is to be honest and transparent with the people I come in contact with - even if that means exposing the truth for all that it is, no matter how uncomfortable it is. And in the experience with my father’s passing, I am ready to shed light on what my world has consisted of, for fourteen years. More importantly, I get to joyfully live in my truth - unafraid of repercussions that could come upon my father because of the intimate details of my life that I decide to share. There is no more protecting my mother - she has made her bed.
This is life with a drug addicted mother.
This is the manipulation that I have lived with for exactly half of my life.
This is me, taking back my truth and living in light.